thoughts that clutter
life is a trip, but i try not to fall.
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| 02.19.04 (12:46 pm) |
| have you ever had that feeling when you do not want to do anything? You just want to lay around and be lazy. Let time evaporate into oblivion. Let your mind wander and wonder. Well that’s how I am feeling right now. I feel blank, but not in a bad, depressing way. Just blank, like notebook paper waiting patiently for mysterious words to fill the lines, waiting for blacks or blues to fall with out parachutes and splatter on to the surface, as a result, feelings and emotions gracefully emerging from the chaos, like those tall and beautiful flowers that grow in garbage dumps. Okay, I am rambling….. but my point is that this “blankness” feels good, for now I have open space to grow. My mind is no longer cluttered with unnecessary problems and thoughts… its free. I don’t know what exactly prompted this feeling…. Maybe it is the fact that I have been delirious for the past 3 days because of a fever and head cold… or maybe it’s the fact that I have learned to accept my own flaws, and I have become okay with myself. Well, to be honest I do not think the reason really matters at this point… all I know is that I feel content. And with this knowledge I can get through the day. |