thoughts that clutter
life is a trip, but i try not to fall.
| I miss him |
| 11.28.04 (8:12 pm) |
It has been a while since I have written anything of any importance concerning me. I am typing a paper about Medea right now for my classical mythology class, and I find myself in tears. Actually I find myself in tears often. I think about him, from time and time. I think about how I messed things up with my foolishness.... and I start to cry. I try to explain this to people, but no one really cares. They tell me that its over and he was an asshole, yada yada. But I can't help myself. I can't control these feelings. and you know what. I really have tried. I know I sound like a broken record. But it is because of him I don't write, cause every time i sit down with a pen.... memories begin to shatter on to the paper like broken glass... sharp pieces everywhere ready to pierce and scar. And they do. and i lament.
But what can I do. I gave myself to him. And now what I once had is gone.. and i miss it. hmmm. i really miss it. i miss him. i miss me then.
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posted by:
brittsunshine
post date:
11.29.04 (7:33 am)
oh my gosh, girl i know exactly how you feel! im going through it too, and my blogs are just a mess of emotions thanks to a guy. my advice, blog about it. its helped me. might hurt, but you cant get over the pain without dealing with it
posted by:
manneh
post date:
11.29.04 (7:38 am)
I cant exactly say much about it, only being in 1 seriousISH relationship before. but i know that talking about it helps, i dont talk about it to anyone and it hurts. only coz i cant trust any1 i know.
posted by:
newbie
post date:
11.30.04 (10:44 am)
Hey, i stumbled across your very cute blog, and man i can sympathise, but i cannot truly understand - i mean, i can try to put my feet in your shoes...thinking of how it would be if i lost my first boyf who i'm still with - but it wouldn't come close. I am sorry to read this, it's sad - hopefully you can get through this - eventually you will i'm sure. And like brittsunshine said, blogging will always help - it will get your thoughts down and out quicker...and it will feel like a sense of relief...like you're telling your best friend, like someone's listening - and in some cases...like for me, my blog is my best friend. Good luck with everything.
Lauri xx
